found it! it's "sougenno hito", meaning the person in the priarie. (big grass area lah)

some funny incident about yesterday which i forgot to mention.
i have a classmate name Terry. he can be reeeeeally up ur nerve and be ultra lame but he's funny anyway.
Shaikha, Jeremy and Yvonne (my grp members) and I went down to Ultra Supplies to photostep some stuff and Terry joined us cos me n jere n terry take the same bus number home. then while terry was standing somewhere between a photostepping machine and a cabinet, he has no other way of walking out other than walking out frontward. guess wot? i sat there and blocked his way out. one thing i forgot to mention that is he's super sensitive and damn afraid of ppl poking or tickling him. so me and jere keep bullying him hehehehe i poke left jere poke right then terry "RARGH" very loudy as he jumps all over.

it was a hectic time for the pass two weeks where me and my grp members are rushing like mad.. i hardly get more than 7 hours of sleep everyday and in fact 7 hrs is already a blessing. just yesterday i slept only 5 and a half hour. =_=

to make matters worse, next week is my mid-sem tests already. then project submissions and then presentations and which means that we cant relax even if it's after the tests and have to drive ourselves EVEN HARDER to complete the projects for one more month or so.. and it literally means staying back every single day from day to night. that's wad happened last year and that's wad i am trying to avoid this year by finishing more things beforehand. i already typed out the Client-P project report. the introduction of other projects are about done already... now it's the body we have to worry about.

now on tv i'm watching a very strange mtv. is matsura aya going through some change in image or wad? this mtv is by her but it's like totally not her cos of the song which sounds like enka mix with pop. very slow and very womanly kind like STRANGE leh! somewhere she wear until very pretty but simple and she so pretty!!! i go check out the song title and dl the mtv mebbe...

i was busy typing my report for Client-P project when mizoe came up and gave me this link to some freaky site. freaky not in the sense of ghost or wad not.
it juz simple is a mind reading thing that for some strange reason is ACCURATE! i wonder why but i did try something with it. didnt' think of any number and juz click and symbols still come out. weird hahahaha
Try it here. The Flash Mind Reader

projects... deadlines... assignments to submit... presentation..... MID-SEM TEST.... *pulls hair* RAAAAAAAAARGHHH...

i'm gonna go bonkers pretty soon.. THERE'S SO MUCH TO DO!!
everything is juz piling up one onto another.
i juz exchanged some messages with wenchuan and vincent.. wenchuan in the morning but soon after he did not reply.. mebbe busy with school. vincent replied onli after a looooong while... which is sometime about 15 minutes ago.. (now is 5:29PM) and he's now in NS already man! adoi.. cant imagine him botak. anyway he alwayz so fit so shouldn't be that bad lah might be one of this day we arrange and meet up or wad.. meimei seem pretty busy so *sigh* guess it's best if we wait till late march. by then i'll be having my HOLIDAYS already wahahaha...

AT HOME
woken up in the morning by dad. had fishball noodle for lunch.. i'm gonna go meet up with wilfred later at CCK to pay some bills and get my umbrella back. guess wot i'm watching now? lolz` you wouldn't believe it. Meteor Garden 2 (however u spell it)!! hahahaha juz bored yah.. tv no nice shows so might as well juz watch this one. i think i'll start abit on the CLIENT-P project introduction... save time..

CHOA CHU KANG
met up with fred there today to get back my umbrella onli to realise that it's nowhere to be found...geez... anyway, we went up to his old house.. it's in a mess eversince the shift man haha everything all over the place and when we opened up the mailbox the letters were juz overwhelming. we paid the bill for wilfred's hp and called the starhub hotline to change his biling address. surprisingly it works even on a sunday! i alwaiz thought that onli weekdays then can call. before all these i had mcspicy and fred had big mac meal over at LOT 1...

WILFRED'S HSE
rest alittle.. no one seems to be at home. as usual fred was playing comp and i was in the room reading comic book. finally i managed to get my "HUNTER X HUNTER" #15.... left his hse at about 9:30PM cos i hav sch tmr..

MRT
SOME BLARDI KID STEPPED ON MY LEG AND JOLTED ME UP FRM MUH SLEEP DARNIT! her dad did apologise but she and her brother so damn noisy in the train dat i could hardly sleep..

AT HOME
now i'm watching the michael jackson interview.. lotsa doubts. but it's amazing seeing him have a 12 year old as a best friend. a boi. holding hands. =_=
but one thing i agree with, is that we DON'T have to act like an adult once we're over 18. we act as we wish and dat's wads impt.

22/2/03 Satuday
AT HOME
woke up by a shake on my butt by dad trying to get me to wake up. i think he called me once but i went back to sleep again. =P
anyway, as usual i went to the toilet and brush teeth and stuff... that was about 12 PM. 9AM my aunt called and woke me up. i rushed to the phone thinking that it's mum and forgot that it was a saturday and even thought that she have called to ask me to go school..
i had sausage, eggs, bread and oxtail soup for breakfast. my dad prepared it. hehez.. mum came home scolding non-stop at us for not picking up the hse phone and her handphone.
Prob 1. both of us didn't hear the hse phone ring cos it DIDN'T ring.
Prob 2. her stupid hp's ringtone is off.
anyway after having breakfast, or rather lunch, i ate some kiwi and left home for japanese class.

JAPANESE CLASS
i took alot of notes man! the teacher hardcore sial...teach so much hahaha copy until i go mad.. can't catch up with wad she's teaching for a moment cos she hardly explain in english.. i even have to bring a photo next week to class for discussion. =_= and but hey i was ALMOST early for class today. mebbe 1 or 2 minute later hahaha but last time i used to be much earlier.. about half an hour earlier. but now i couldn't be bothered hahaha... sian ah go so early sit there do nothing...

BRAS BASAH COMPLEX
i wanted to go to popular book store to get some pen cos mine already finishing. i was looking around in search for familiar faces.. my friends whom i used to play soccer with.. but too bad.. there ain't any around. i noticed some changes with bras basah.. they repainted the building and it has both whitish and yellow colour theme and the escalator has this yellow metal design on it.. the flr tiles are changed and the lift too. became those with the viewable panel infront and automated "level one" sound coming out of it...
i bought my pen and was looking around for the staff whom i always talked to when i bought comics last time. she don't seem to be around but i noticed some familiar faces... amazing that they've stayed at the job for so many years! as i walked and passed the area where there were hidden shops behind, memories keep coming back to me from the days we were playing soccer to rollerblading behind where yu wei threw a packet of fries down after being startled by me. the whole place made me feel so damn nostalgic and i was very emotional because i realised how much i missed the days i had there. i walked up to the 5th flr somehow.. to where we once played soccer... i felt like crying. i miss them so damn much. i want to see them! i was having nostalgia overload... i felt like i'm being suffocated by memories. i want to run away from it all yet i'm drawn back by the same reason and finally i couldn't take it anymore and left to go downstairs... i passed by the drink stall and seeing the same old indian couple there. bet they don't remember me no more but i bought a can of drink from them anyway.

MRT
saw a vain lil` girl with pretty curls combing her hair for upteen times and then touching to see it's alrite. so young yet so vain.
then i saw this very pretty lady..with gd figure talkin on the phone and then giving out a very astonished expression. apparently she forgot about some appointment she had with her bf/husband and had many cute expressions along with it. strange thing was her voice was rather rough.. mebbe sore throat. she soon alighted at the next stop to go meet up with her "dear" already..

WILFRED'S HOUSE
it started raining very heavily when i got out of the train. i had to walk to the back gate to meet wilfred when a bunch of kids crowded around the gate. give fred's 300+ degree of shortsightedness, he didn't notice me and continued standing and waiting even though he's eyes were directly looking at me. i signalled to him but he couldn't see so another man who was standing infrnt of him saw and thought that i was signalling to him, came and open the gate for us. i was very impatient by then.. maybe because of the nostalgia overdoes. when i entered fred's house and greeted his dad, his dad gave me an expression which i could not comprehend and got rather pissed off bcos of dat. i was very frustrated. i went into fred's rm and thew my jacket aside. lying down on the bed, i tried to calm my nerves but wilfred's constant questioning is driving me nuts so i chased him out and slept on. when i came out of his room, his bro's rm door was left ajar with him changing inside hahaha and he was like "eh! sorry" and quickly changed and shut the door. hahaha... i took out my books to study in the living room while they watched the match btwn man u and bolton. juz as the match of everton and some team with the short cut as "sot" was nearing to the end, fred's mum, as usual drunk, came out and went to the kitchen. soon she was screaming and shouting at them for having switched off the stove, leaving the soup cold and it's such a small thing but she have to make it such a big fuss and kept on screaming and shouting about it. soon she threw two plates on the floor smashing them into pieces. no idea where dat came from. it was such a small thing!!! now not only does she have to heat up the food, she have to spend time clearing up the glass pieces. stupid.

AT HOME
now i'm home. watching tv, typing my blog. dad was awake when i got home but soon went to his room and sleep. my eyes could hardly open now so i'm waiting for fred to faster finish bathing. we were chatting on the phone about us, our future and him. juz straightening our thoughts about and me talking to him about not trying to run away frm reality anymore but to face the obstacles ahead. nvm it's between us haha. i'll spare u the details.

THOUGHTS
alwaiz i've thought that i cared alot about friends yet why i get to keep them? eventually i'll lose them and be left with onli a few. why? maybe bcos i don't contact them after we had different path in life? but, they don't too! and when i do, they shut me out so what am i to do?

.::Brain Dead::.
looks like i havent been around blogging much. pretty rare huh? betcha all missed me *hehehehez* i'm juz plain tired over projects that i've been rushing over the onoe week going home at mad ideas and even my grp members are afraid of me and askin me to go hm and slp hahahah i chiong too hard already..

i juz finished drilling through 6 chapters worth of studies... mid-sem test comin up after next week... then break... then project submission... then presentation... fast huh? i feel like dying already hahaha guess i'm not TOO good-tempered today as i was everyday for the past one week. eversince the "friends" incident i became cheerier and twice ppl asked me y i so happy when i'm juz plain myself as in relaxed or something. when i'm in gd mood i'm rather bouncy. *boing!*

jere came over last nite to do a discussion on the project... a website we have to do..
he came over at about 9PM or so... he lived nearby so it's fine. we did our project till about 11+ then i let him go hm first and then i continued with it and showed it to the teacher this morn.. sian sia.. stupid mr leng kacau me say my english lousy.. *poke doll*

i went to look for wilfred after resting for awhile at home watching some tv.. today's fred's first day at work! and he's good!! sorta have to talk ppl round to doing a survey inside prudential. $6 per hr and $3 per customer u get. he said his colleagues were pretty stunned at his hyper attitude.. hahaha he's so bouncy... mebbe it's juz cos he was a salesman before dats y.. he managed to get quite a few ppl in there.... so i guess he earned about... $53 today... or mebbe $57 if the last customer that he fetched was eligible... hehez...

okok i go catch some sleep hopefully i'll be able to blog later... cheers!

fred is with his 'love' guru experience.
i seriously believe that he can open up another aunt agony column
for lovers who are lost. he seems to have all the answers to the questions i ask him
and that he can tell me even how to go about solving it in a damn the experienced and mature way!
how come sia... hahahaha

then he told me, that first r/s is always the best. best in terms of the release of passion because it's the first.
cheem.
ok lah.... now he telling me to be guai.. study hard.. dun go pubbin wahaha like i small ger sia..
eh......? i tot i said i'll be blogging less? wahaha guess not.. i juz finished studying my stuff for today..
5 chapters of stuff including tech m, cus com and crm.. sianz

i think my temper got better even though i'm so damn busy hahaha usually at this corner of time
i'm very stressed out and edgy and will vent some anger or get moodswings with wilfred....
cry and stuff lidat... i'm doing none of those and instead, i became very good-natured and juz pleasant to him u noe?
i'll juz call him when i'm done and he'll sms me every once in awhile,
to ask about me and how i'm doin and then ask me to rest more and stuff lidat..
most of the time he'll leave me alone to finish my work first...
for some strange reason every since i sorted out my thoughts after the 'friends' incidents,
my temper and ability to control my temper improved tremendously

he asked me if i would've prefered to be his first girl.
i thought through and told him that i prefer the wilfred i'm with now.
he had his gd experience in r/s but likewise for bad ones
so i believe that he'll know better when i'm treating him well and therefore cherish me more.
it's amazing how we managed to be together so harmoniously altho our personalities are complete opposites.
this applied for me and yifeng too... strange.
oh yes i read about her this doctor boss... very funny sia... like so cute
oh yes talkin abt fred.. we communicate so well that even till now i'm still amazed.

and yes, some stuff to tell a couple of u... cos i dun get to chat with u often..
kor, relax abit more okay? it'll be for your's and da sao's gd if not it'll onli strain ur relationship. heart pain seeing u stressed like that. juz try to understand that it's normal to feel wad you felt but dun lament and reproach urself so much. i've been through it and done it upteen times and i know how tiring it can get. juz consider this one thing i say. PEOPLE CHANGE. we, human, is alwaiz learning things and then changing in order to adapt and improve. so don't always think that "i'm juz like that, cant change"
it's not true ok? if you are determined, you can and i believe that you can do it. actions speaks louder than words.
you're really kind person the fact that you wanted to gimme a present cos fred didn't silly perhaps but cute haha. save ur money for prezzie for da sao instead. it's painful to see a kind soul in pain so dun torture yourself for being so uptight k??

hey pat, you need to relax and juz don't think so complicatedly... (is there such a word..? erm..)
it juz adds on to your emotional stress and sometimes, once you set your mind on something juz don't go think about it anymore. it'll onli create new doubts and you'll juz keep on running around in circles. stop torturing yourself and your other half. it can be seen that you both love each other and leaving won't solve anithing.

ADOI MY EYES BLUR LIAO CAN'T SEE CLEAR LIAO AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

my eyes feel as if they are pretty much crossed now.. been sitting infront of the comp doing the tabulation....
i was alone in the comp lab since about 4 something till about 8 before i left for home... feels that time passed really quickly when you're busy...
and because of myself being so busy i hardly had time to talk with wilfred and couldn't meet him till friday.. sad sial aniway he had this temp job heehee
pays him six buck an hour and three bucks commission every ppl he gets to do a survey... wah my eyes can hardly open...

i had my mock interview today... damn they asked really tough questions! stupid renjie... haha he's the toughest interviewer among them all but he say i fierce.. wad sia hahaha he say i quite ok... me and adel goh as one of the best interviewee he interviewed. teacher say i had clear and loud voice.. gd answers etc.... duno wad lah hai yah muz wear formal and all.. terry wear blazer and all.. damn pro sia... stress..

my eyes can hardly open i think i'll stop now.. i think i'll be blogging much less these few days cos of projects to rush..

now i'm sitting here, totally burnt out from the lack of sleep and constant working...
my eyes cant see properly and are pretty much begging for sleep... tests are comin... lotsa deadlines.. finally finished my tabulation of the surveys today but still have to worry about getting articles for the quiz and the portfolio that's due pretty soon and worse, later when i wake up i have to go to school for this stupid interviewing roleplay and this time, i am the interviewee.. sux man... have to wear formal... troublesome like anything.. i havent talked much with wilfred today because i'm so damn busy oh well at least i forked out some time to blog first! *hehez*

i'm juz afraid that we cant finish our stuff in time.
mebbe i'm juz too stressed and scaring myself. for some strange reason since that "friends" issue, i seldom lost temper and is more controlled and at ease. cool. at least i know, that's me hey! haha

i nearly had a tiff with jere the day before... stupid idiot got stressed and vent his anger on me.. i deep fry him ah! he got sick today... fever... retribution! *muahahahah* and so can't come to school yesterday... let's see how well the day will be for later...

damn now i have to hear my mum talk abt bf issue...argh.. stressed.
sian... i get damn stressed out whenever i hear her talk abt these and gets edgy. juz very afraid she would ask me things that's a sensitive issue or things that can be critizised. first ask me if he finished his O levels. stressed number one. i answered and then she say "how come!?" stress number two. i explain that he'll continue it while in N.S. ok managed to skip the issue after that. then she talked about the new room that's to be built and that wilfred can come if he had something to study.. then he can pass off as a classmate without my dad questioning but then ... *sigh*

was damn tired last night. woke up at 7, went to school at 9AM, stayed all the way till onli 8++PM.. was busy doing the survey tabulation until eye pain. shitty thing was after me n jere was done with our share and saving it, the stupid thing DISAPPEARED on me!!!

ok now my mum is letting out her grudges she have on my auntie and giving me all the 'stories'... and then she drifts off to another auntie.. then he drifts so saying which relative is gd and have backbone etc, which is lousy and no character... =_=

just helped patricia convert her blog to all black or somesort... had some help frm honggy who knows more about html than me.. afterall they had proper training hahaha i'm juz an observer. tmr gotta go to sch early in the freakin morning to attend some stupid SIP interview talk... then after that free liao. sux man.
so our grp's gonna start on the SPSS tabulation tmr... gotta start getting jobs delegated and get this freakin things over and done with. cant stand it man..

actually i'm supposed to sleep by now... or rather two hours ago wahahaha but heck lah..
imma bz gurl ya noe! i went over to fred's hse as usual today and slacked around abit before heading to IKEA to walk walk. i bought a "The Edge" ppr that cost me like freakin $3!! machiam newsppr but it's for the business one.. gotta find at least two more articles or so for my stupid technology management portfolio.. i realised that looking stacks and stacks of straits times is pretty meaningless cos there's not much things there whereas when u look into business journals things seems more hopeful there. i'm still looking around to wad kinda stupid ad can i use for my class quiz... sian sia so many things to hand in and the projects are due next mth or so and then the stupid mid semestral tests are all comin thank god onli 4 pprs BUT STILL... heng we no final exams. projects alone are killin me.

i feel like kok-ing Ann's head. one moment say wanna SIP in giordano, nxt moment had a tiff with the boss and dun wan to work there. now she say the boss enlighten her and she wanna stay. WAT SIAL i slaugther her ar! thank god i sticked to my choice of wanting to work in giordano still altho i was pretty much influence by her and was unsure abt my decision. then i think again, is that even if it's gonna be tough workin there, it's a gd experience and i get paid more. moreover, if that's gonna b tough and i got through it, wadever else that comes in my way would be a breeze for me hehehehe...

i've been missing quite alot of lectures cos of the stupid teachers who keep playing around with the timing and cheating my feelings for makin me come to sch where the lectures are cancelled. darn it. gotta catch some sleep now..

gimme a couple of minutes more to update this while i bathe..

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right now i'm in school waiting for the time to leave and go meet Wilfred to celebrate Valentine's Day together! so excited wahahaha we're gonna go for simple stuff like dinner and movies. i'm jus glad that i've spent two valentine's day with him already. he didn't know but i bought a card of him heehee.. although i've already gotten him a present. Manchester United poster and it's in his room now.
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*sigh* dunno whether to say today's vdae spent well or not. didn't receive any gift he short of cash but it juz get's on your nerve seeing other ppl holding flowers. i had this girl run up and gimme a rose at the end of the day though.. think she didn't sell finish so she gimme or wad...

i was pretty moody and quiet for most of the day but cheered up alittle while we were having dinner and watching shanghai knight. that movie was pretty funny especially the NG parts damn hilarious. cos from next week onwards i'll be having alot of thing to get myself busy with project and mid-sem test studying so i'll be very busy and hardly have time for wilfred so i was pretty ticked off when terry called up and asked him to go pubbin tmr... sorta a belated bdae celebration for him. then they were talkin abt the money part cos fred is broke and stuff and i din wanna go cos basically it's a waste of money and i rather not go. so me and fred had some prob settling this and once again i cried during vdae. btw, when we went up to paragon i met the "Aloysious" boi from PCK. got blonde streak and stuff, quite tall sial.. now all grown up already.. he took a glance at me while i sorta glance elsewhere instead hahaha.. couldn't be bothered. fred juz told me he tmr dun feel like going. *gee* waste my tears wahahhaa jkjk no lah me nowadays oso duno wat's wrong... easily upset.

before meeting up with fred i went to school to print out some stuff to hand in to that irritating Lily Lim. i was there busy sorting out which is which cos i helping jere, wendy and shai to hand in also. stupid sia the teacher keep saying things like thank u, you may go, or irritating things like these. she no eyes see i busy meh!? and also once again i kana cheated by teacher and thought got lecture end up dun hav. when i tot dun hav end up have. fuck sia. after school i went to orchard and took the same bus as Ann.

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...Friendships can be so fragile sometimes...

just so suddenly.. my whole concept of friendship is collapsing before my eyes. Somewhere in my friend's blog i am witnessing a conflict amongst group members especially during such crucial times where projects are due. These is the time when members should get together and work towards one goal but it's more saddening of the fact that they seemed so close before yet now it seems as though a deep hatred arise from somewhere somehow and i am juz a mere passerby who knows nothing wad is happening. Jus wish things will turn out fine for them.

On my side.... i'm not too sure if it's considered good or bad. Let's put it this way, i had a group of very close friends. just the 5 of us. but now, and onli till now, did i realised that what has happened during the time i'm with wilfred for the past year or so, they have been shunning me. for a reason i could not perhaps, mebbe i was wrong to not spend as much time with them as i did before. they said i've changed. yes i have. people do. it is onli normal because in my point of view, they've changed too. but does changes leads to having your close friends turn their back on you? do i deserve this? i do not understand. have my changes been so unacceptable, for i have neither backstabbed anyone nor done anything that would've hurt them yet why are they doing this to me. we've been friends for 7 years.... 7 years! yet they could juz leave me like this. i was told they tried to persuade me, but why am i not aware of it? if i were to truly be concerned, i would've bugged that friend of mine to death, trying to brainwash her. whenever now i try to talk to them much, what i receive was cold replies to what i asked and that's it. no more warmth. no more concerns. no more friendships. if feels as though tears became acid and stings my eyes. if feels as though i've choked onto something undescribable that refuses to budge from my throat. it feels as if my hearts is being ripped apart and my mind simply could not comprehend what is happening and questions juz continue swirling around in circles in my mind.

i called up yifeng, i've known her for 11 years. and to me, she is the one true friend i've had. she is real, down to earth, and most importantly, unpretentious. she is direct to me for i that's what i preferred and in a sense mebbe some people cannot take this kind of direct approach. but that's me. that's the way i do things and i believe i am very sincere in my comments and never meant to offend. yifeng was direct with me and i love her for that because she let's me know what's wrong with me or with things and that allows me to change for the good rather than keeping me in the dark and doing things and discussions behind my back and condemning me after that. perhaps i am not seeing the big picture here and have wronged the other 4 of them (one still keeps in contact with me and is direct with me about it so i appreciate it alot) and think that i'm not wrong but they are. perhaps. but then again. i make my stand and will not tolerate being misunderstood nor will i tolerate childish behaviour in handling relationships with one another. shunning others for stupid reason is unforgivable. i do not need such things. i provide my friends with full attention whenever needed so long as you come to me and is fine with sitting down for a good talk. friends are there for each other and be understanding about one another's situation. yifeng understood me. i dun understand why they could not. it was the first time i heard yifeng actually scolding any vulgarities haha. she asked them to fuck off. feels kinda weird hearing that from her but i love her anyway.

they disliked wilfred for they think of him as many things. but they've onli met him for a few times and they made such assumptions of his characther. though they might not be seeing this entry but i juz nid to say this out. Who are you to judge others when others are not doing it to you? You have absolutely NO right to do so. they were judgemental and condemned wilfred, the guy i love yet they couldn't be understanding enough to know him better for my sake. i've never commented on their other half so why should they? i will live my life like i once did. i will pull myself together and be strong once again. i will become the MARIA i am. i am myself and no one else. i've never shed a tear in front of others before although for the past one year i've been crying more than i ever should. i became weak and crumpled under stress but i will not again. right now, i'm doing perfectly fine typing this entry without crying although i admit to choking. but i'd rather convert the sadness to anger and make myself feel pissed off about it (that explains my constant surge or body heat) and wan to punch someone. mebbe it's the constant blasting of dance tracks haha.

right now i juz need to treasure those who truly cares and will be there for me. little as it may be i will not lose my way and i've alwayz valued friends so dun you fuckin dare accuse me. i might be unsociable because of the fact that i'm not very good with ppl. but since i know who my real friends are now i will not lose my way again. infact i'm doing pretty fine. i had a good day with my group members and we even went walkin around at tampines mall and century square. me and my group members are doing pretty well and shaikha and i is pretty alrite. Ann is talkin alot to me too. not bad! in fact you know what? Ann makes a good friend and someone to talk with. she listens. i'm even enjoying my ice-cream now. i told fred abt wad happened and he was there for me too. in fact i believe that our trust in each other has strengthened.

juz to thank some folks here for being there to listen to my crapping. Twit and sano, thanks man, you guys are alwaiz there when i needed help. at least i have someone to turn to. thanks for listening to me last nite feng, *evil grinz* i'm gonna bug you for life and dun you forget that!

OH YES. and one thing, terry my classmate teased me today. you know how? you suddenly say, "eh maria, last sunday is you and wilfred's annivasary issit?"
i was stunned. hahaha wondering HOW on earth, did he find out!! then i realised he viewed my blog through patricia's blog!!! OMG! then he keep kacauing me so i keep tickling him. i even taught jeremy how to massage today wahahaha... me king of massage.

Tuesday's Stuff
had small group tutorial this morning and it stressed the heck out of me. i have 5 projects and guess what? they are due in march! fuck man that's so freaking fast...
beginning of march i'm gonna have my mid-sem test and then a one week break which is for me and my grp members to kill ourselves with workload and then when we're back in school guess what? it's submission DUE DATES. then the following week? PRESENTATIONS. fuck man.. so fast...

i think i'm gonna die.

anyway just finished doing my communications skills reflective journal and i think i've suaned the teacher enough. haiz. tired man can't stand it.. why should school be such a chore? it should be fun! *RARGH* i met michelle this noon and she looks kinda cool wahaha she's in mass comm and they were doing some production thingy... all the vid cam and mic... ultra cool.... and when i left school i saw two girls. one is sickeningly skinny and not very pretty and very flat chested although her hair and dressing seems pretty nice. weird. then i saw another girl that is ultra cool but like a japanese boi. hahaha she look like a china girl to me that has a babyish boi look. her hair was abit messy, had a fringe and then the rest of her hair was covering down reaching her shoulder and the shape is abit like....hm mushroom? longer version but it looks nice on her anyway. then she wore this checked shirt and very baggy pants that's kinda falling off and thick chain round the pants while she wacks her cigeratte box to even out the tabacco.... cool man.....!

i went to meet up with wilfred at hmv and met adeline and sureen. then fred went n play pool with terry for awhile then about 7:30 lidat i went to wilfred's place.

i'm very tired for some weird reason.. mebbe it's just cos i woke up real early today..
now on tv is also some stupid drama.. sun wukong on scv chnnl 55... as usual its lead actor is zheng zi jian (the guy who acted in quite alot of drama and is botak). if u duno i oso cannot help u cos i forgot the name of the dramas he acted in... anyway the cast is very big and influential though.. nick tse.. andy hui... sammi cheng.. alot leh... okok i rephrase... ALL the characthers are some big shot in the hk and taiwan drama.

i juz finished eating chicken chop hehehe

.::Now Listening::.
David Bedingfield - IF You're Not The One.mp3

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh i juz love this song!!! *SqUeALs* heeheehee his voice abit high lah but nice hahaha this song very emo haha hm talking emo, that day jeremy they all come my hse do project he also commented that all the songs i have are very emo (emotional). *peeks at tv* alrite... now they are showing baby ostrich chicks learning how to walk hahaha so cute!

hmmmm am now listening to other songs of daniel bedingfield but it seems alittle too popsy for me.... ee.... hahaha...
Wednesday is Hari Raya YAY!!!!!! holiday! hehehehe means i can meet wilfred again! yay yay yay!
am now chatting with pat and yifeng and teasing feng abt her arse wahahhaa
my group is almost done with survey... i guess datz the onli thing i'm relieved with haha.. sian sia...

Sunday's Stuff
i'm juz so sick and tired already.
from the moment i woke up and switched on my handphone, i've been constantly bombarded with questions of what time will it be for classes tomorrow? will there be lectures? are we having project? then i get the news about having quiz tomorrow of which, i am totally not prepared with. then i asked around to see if the survey is done and end up hearing that most of them hardly finished theirs and worse of all, jeremy haven't even done a single one and even dared bet with me that the others have not done theirs yet. sad to say jere, THEY ALL FREAKIN DID. too bad he can't see my entry. but the fuck with it. i'm juz too fuckin tired to be answering any more questions. i myself am juz as confused and blur but why does it have to be me to do the answering?

today is me and wilfred's one year third month's annivasary. we had a little tiff but we're alright with it. our quarrels never last long. me and him, have gone through alot. it takes more than juz some small tiff to break us up. i had dinner with his parents at a nearby stall and had yu sheng, chicken and some noodles... mum cooked my fav dishes this morn before i went out. watercress soup (love it since childhood!!!) and fried spicy promfret.. (however u spell it). mum says that's the onli fish i'll ever eat haha... i hate fish. not onli do they stink, they taste awful too.. especially when it's not thoroughly cooked. you'll never ever, see me eating steamed fish. NEVER!

oh yes and btw, my friend made this website which i tot the layout was totally cool and original. i simply love the icons and juz too bad i dun hav the programme he has if not i would've love to draw something like that... photostudio simply don't produce such strokes.
Here goes. It's still under construction at the moment and it's a personal website.

right now, sano is over at wilfred's house watching soccer.
he's gonna stay over at wilfred's house tonight and go to school straight from wilfred's home. how i wish i could stay over too. but i think that will have to wait. hopefully i can do that before wilfred goes to NS. talkin about ns, i'm gonna miss wilfred like hell. i'm most probably gonna cry every night for the 3 months in which he'll be having his bmt. and since i heard that he can only come out on saturdays and have to go back by sunday, i'm gonna miss him even more! damn it...

i managed to get two surveys done up today. one, by the security guard of wilfred's condo.. yes you heard me right. the "security guard". hahaha wilfred approached him for me. second was by chee keong. a ex-classmate from JCS.
i chatted up for a short while with tetsu juz now.. apparently he went into #osaka and got attacked by mari and her friends. mebbe they were in the wrong for being mean but tetsu have his part to play in the wrong too. he shouldn't have gone around talkin to ppl in japanese like some smart alec.... it pissess ppl off sometimes lolz.. especially those who don't know him well.

btw, i cant load pictures anymore... not until i could find another website that allows free hosting cos apparently, ranchoweb is introducing a paying system. so now i have to pay if i wan to post any pictures and that sucks big time doesn't it. you all cant see my lovely pictures hahaha.. btw, i'll be adding a lovely picture of one of my fashionable group member under [F]riends in my webcam picture link.
i can assure you that she is much more prettier in real life and in fact, when she's in formal wear she's even more stunning. the picture was taken alittle badly cos of the colour.. seems alittle blur.. haha

right now i'm very tired.... juz got home an hour ago from wilfred's house.. we went to far east earlier on the print that photo which cost us about $6.90 but took alot of trouble cos of some background choosing problem and also printing error but we got it done in the end and it's pretty sweet. it's the 3D picture thingy..

right now i'm trying to get souji to help me with my IKEA survey... i even passed one to wilfred to ask his brother do.. but then i juz realised... he's brother's age is not the age group i wanted.. *mistake* i actually wrote an entry yesterday during the afternoon after i got back from a half an hour class... but i clicked BLOGGER by accident and the whole thing was gone and so i was lazy to retype it again.. =_="

i met Andrea Kang earlier this afternoon.. she was asking me to do a comic strip for her.. i wonder if i could do it... i'm too lazy hahaha.. she's actually rather pretty i realised... anyway, Ann asked if i wanted the job in Giordano... as my Student Internship Programme (SIP) attachment.. i think i am.. since school's gonna arrange us to some retailer might as well i get myself a self-secured placement and at least my pay will be much higher..

i really hate that stupid Lily Lim... she is such a lousy teacher.... last minute tell us everything and also, YES it's true that our Marketing Course expect us to have problem based learning and teachers should not give out too much hint cos we're supposed to research on it... but she take it for granted that we SHOULD know the answers since we researched.. if we were THAT good at it, we wouldn't be in a school in the first place!!! stupid bitch.

ooh tv now got Legend of Love.... that show acted by Drew Barrymore.. i watched before... quite nice..

soooooooo sleepy man.... i went back home earlier on.. before i met wilfred. i took a bus ride home with terry and jeremy.. talkin rubbish while in the bus.. man i'm pretty easily tired nowadays.. all the money issue... projects and stuff... stressful man..


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